Sunday, May 31, 2015

31st May 2015

Low endorphin level, let's be silent and run away from life.

Silence is the best description i can use to describe my life in university.

ivsa scholarship fund, people who were in europe got it, obviously it's understood that to them, the fees might already be affordable. Mayb i'm just not good enough even i have been trying trying and trying to apply for all the time that i can.
Fair, unfair, hardwork goes down the drain, trying so hard to just be part of your friends but ntg could beat extrovert's attractiveness. Learn to love your subjects but every time exam results just stabs you in the heart.

Thursday, April 23, 2015

23 April 2015. 7pm GMT+8

This post is written on 23 April 2015. 7pm GMT+8

With my 4th year sort of weekly classes, added with class replacement. This wasn't the most tiring yet.
You still have all sorts of exams being pushed onto the week with  your surgery rotation. Plus all the field visit being postponed towards the end of semester. What life would be when all you feel is negativity in your classmates. You don't feel good at all. You just wanna leave and give yourself a recharge from the overwhelmed stress.

 I just feel like a force of nature that the inner me have had enough. I should ignore the feeling of lonely and stop pleasing friends that you wish to get some attention from. No one really understands how I feel deep inside. I've been too nice, too quiet and not knowing how to speak to please till nobody remembers.

With someone left whom you can share your problems. However when you just decided to turn to that someone, you just realized, that you just got misunderstood by that someone. And the next thing is that your sweet picture got removed from the view of his friends.

Honestly, Deleting a picture is not really a big deal. But imagine, if you only have one and only hardcopy pic. When something happened which made you emotionally unstable and you just burnt it without thinking twice, the pic will be gone forever.

Sunday, December 7, 2014

7 Dec 2014

Ever since i entered university, due to stress, my emotions have been tossing, turning, going upside-down, and made me become such a rude person that it affected the people around me :(

Maybe i should talk less from now on :'(

Saturday, May 24, 2014

25.5.14

I am extraordinary, i knew it.

I can never be tamed.

Monday, April 28, 2014

28th April 2014 你没发觉我最近开心了吗?

看开并不是放弃,
而是给自己应有的空间。


佩莉


26th April 2014 - sequel

I realized that the best thg is to do thgs according to your long term goal instead of focusing on what others are doing right now. Do't be a follower, as i trust myself to think v much better than anyone else in this whole wide world on what i want in life. I just hav to change the way i look at studies. Theres no need to study till 3 or 4 am all the time for what i want is just a job, health, and a life more worthwhile for myself. Im nt dreaming of winning nobel prize in academics but losing health and leading a meaningless life. This is not what i am looking for. It's not impossible to go both science and arts at the same time. Whilst on a journey of becoming a vet, i wont give up on my love for dancing, photography and whatelse i can name it. I might not be the best but at least im better than just knowing just how to study. I knew what happiness after i used to lose them. Go ahead everyone, i've found my worth and i knew what i want.


Ich spüre diese Kraft, sie ist ein Teil von mir!

26 April 2014

actually i do love dancing alot, but sometimes life gets too busy on studies and everythg else in uni, my life becomes so dull and boring and im too tired to do what i usually enjoy. It's sad but i found that i just gotta take studies easily, dont get too stress on it cuz in the end of the day, the most important thg is just be able to graduate and you're able to live your life to the fullest without wasting your young days without enjoying what you should.


*listening to the song - Breakaway , avril lavigne *